Just a Quick Note

For the past few days I have been a bit down because of a number of little annoying things keep popping up. Some were as ridiculous as me being irritated that it was another 90-degree day with 90% humidity, others were a bit more legitimate such as the uniform store not having my order ready despite a phone call assenting that they did. I have been irritated that my knees wont leave me be, that my teachers are disorganized, that I have no money, and that I don’t really like homework.

But I have realized that in the same way I no longer get stressed for tests, there is no reason for me to get frustrated at much of what is currently going on in my life. It is about a 50/50 mix of things I can have an effect on, the stuff I don’t like, and those that I cannot change. However I can do something for each one of those categories.

I need to focus on what I can take care of, and do that well. I need to let go emotionally of what I cannot change, and then change my perspective regarding what I don’t like. Granted most of this relates to school, however sometimes it is easier for me to think of it in terms of running.

I cannot change the way that God made my body. I cannot change the years of physical abuse I took it through. I would like to be able to wake up each morning and run free and easy. I would like to knock out a 100 mile week like it was nothing. That just isn’t going to happen. I don’t like drills, stretching, and doing the little things. But if I can change my perspective, accepting who I am, and where I am, and begin to embrace what I have historically disliked, then undoubtedly I will see some changes.

Sometimes the big things matter, but more often it is the little things that will make the most authentic, and lasting changes in our lives.

Despite the histrionics that most days consist of, life can be quite simple if we choose to live that way.

PS: today is the most beautiful day in Virginia so far. It 74 and only 46% humidity. All 14 windows and the balcony door are wide open.